Raise your hand if you need a break through in any area of your life right now….And how many of you would prefer the drive-thru version vs. the slow cooker version?
If you’re like me you’re raising both hands and feet as you read this, lol! I have several areas that I want God to do a new thing in! And I’ve been waiting a long time.
But what I’m learning in this season of my life is that there are no drive-thru breakthrough’s. Things take time, prayer, tears, seasons of doubt and more time. I remember I heard Joyce Meyer once say, your breakthrough is going to take longer than you thought it would and hurt more than you thought it could. Basically she said if we knew beforehand how much it would cost us to get our break through most of us would give up prematurely. And sadly that’s why a lot of people stay stuck. Going around the same mountain again and again.
So for me there are some things I have been hoping for; for a long time. And I don’t see anything happening in a lot of those same areas.
So I’ll take you through the emotions I’ve experienced while waiting:
- Anger-I was angry at God, the world, my parents, etc. I was angry that I was having to go through what I was going through. Angry that things were taking so long. I had my two-year-old temper tantrum with God. We wrestled and I pouted. I was stubborn about my desires and feelings. I felt that I had been treated un-justly in some areas. After a lot of anger and pain I realized being angry would not change/fix anything and I had to change if I wanted to get better. Which then led to:
- Sadness-I went through a period of sadness and grief about things that had happened and had not happened in my life. Grief is a necessary emotion, but then it turned into:
- Self-Pity-this is when you develop a victim mentality. A “woe is me” view of life. I moped, felt bad and wanted somebody else to pay for my bad fortune. Which turned into:
- Bitterness-why me? How come not somebody else? What did I do to deserve this? It’s not fair, why do other people have it better? And on and on. Basically I filtered all of my new experiences through my past hurts. So finally, brokenly, I was brought to:
- Surrender-I couldn’t change my past, nobody could, not even God but I found out He could repay. Isaiah 61:3,8 apply well here. I came to the conclusion that only God could heal my broken heart, no amount of outside substance (sex, food, apologies, payback etc) ever could. But first I had to:
- Forgive-everybody for everything. Parents, ex-boo’s, old girlfriends, abusers, family, etc. I had to forgive with no expectations or strings attached, no ulterior motives. It took me a looooooong time to do this. Despite knowing that God forgave me first, that anger only hurts myself, yada yada. I just wasn’t buying it at first. (I also learned that I’m stubborn, lol). But I learned that you can’t keep the ashes and anxiously await the future beauty God promises! So I forgave everybody, including myself so finally I could experience a:
- Re-Birth-I pledged to live my life in a different way. Even while I was (and still am) waiting on many things to come to pass, including healing and redemption. I learned you can’t move into the promise land with old wilderness mentalities. I can only do what I can do—and to a certain extent I’m limited in my ability to change my circumstances, but God isn’t. Attitude really does matter and I want to change and be better from my experiences, not worse.
Friends I wish I could tell you this all happened in a day. That would make myself look good, lol. I wish I could say that certain things aren’t still a battle for me, but they are. I tell the truth (which sets us free) on my blog to the highest extent possible. I still struggle with some things, but I am reminded that this Christian thing is a day-by-day journey, not a destination. I’ll always be developing, growing and maturing. It’s so frustrating to me because I am an action-instant-results-type-of-person, much like the rest of our society. A great Christian teacher I follow, David Asscherick, said that the single step to succeeding in the Christian walk is that no matter how many times you fall, you keep getting back up. And that’s something I’m determined to do. I’m going to use this stubborn nature of mine to work for me this time in my life and not against me.
So what about you? Have you had any major breakthrough’s in any area of your life? How did you get there? What are you still waiting for God to do?
Will you get out of that drive through with me? Because the only way out is to go through!