The other day as I was completing some house-hold chores I reached for my broom and began to walk towards my five year old dog Ginger. As I drew close to her, broom in hand, she cowered in fear; sadly a typical response for her. I’ve never disciplined her with a broom but I’m guessing she had some pretty scary experiences with them from her former home. You see, she is a rescue dog that I’ve had for about three years and while she has an overall happy disposition she has always displayed a fear of brooms. 😦 It breaks my heart because as long as she’s lived with me she still hasn’t forgotten that trauma.
It got me to thinking and I wondered are we not that way sometimes in our own lives? We go through a traumatic experience as a child or an adult, at the hands of another individual or as a result of a tragic accident or unfortunate circumstance and we just cannot forget the pain, the hurt; the entire experience. And it affects the way we do things, relate to people and see life. Even the way we do relationship with God some times.
We think He will hurt us the same way that ex-boyfriend or girlfriend did…or take advantage of us like that former friend…or forget to show us love like that parent sometimes did. So we hold back, even if just a little bit from giving our entire hearts over to Him.
But He understands that. He knows we’ve been hurt before and that it’s hard to trust… much less trust an invisible being that we can’t see, hold or touch in this life. God doesn’t expect us to have amnesia about our pasts, He knows that they contributed to shaping us, but He doesn’t want us to regard the pain of the past as more significant than the work He wants to do in us today. That’s the key to forgetting the pain of the past.
Don’t give up. Don’t stop trying. Don’t stay discouraged. He understands. Keep pressing in and keep pressing on. Keep believing, keep getting back up and walking out your victory, from glory to glory. 🙂
There is healing and freedom from the past.
“Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 3:13-14