“We have met the enemy and he is us.” –Pogo
” I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21 So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22 For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23 but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. 24 O wretched man I am!” Romans 7: 15-24
Life is a battle. Point blank period. There’s no escaping that truth. The older I get the more battles I seem to face. Relationships, work, family, friends, etc. Each of these battles are time consuming, at times draining, but oh-such a necessary part of life! But out of all of the daily, weekly and monthly battles I face, nothing seems to quite compare to the battle within.
There is a battle raging for my soul.
These battles often present a lot of choices for me to make; between this or that, right and wrong, good or bad. I have a lot of battles I fight privately. There are some things I don’t dare want people to know. And some of them aren’t even all that bad, they just make me feel embarrassed or shamed.
I find myself often doing what I don’t want to do. Whether that’s eating something I know is bad for me when I have vowed not to, saying something I feel in my spirit I shouldn’t say at the moment I’m saying it or doing something for the 1000th time when I promised myself I wouldn’t. It almost seems at time like I am my own worst enemy. I mean don’t I want myself to succeed? Then why do I keep working against myself? O wretched woman that I am!
I can really identify with the above verse where Paul talks about wanting to do what is right but not having the strength to see it through. I think we have all felt like that. I am not going to attempt to explain the full context of what Paul is discussing; the discussion of the whole sin principle is beyond the scope of this platform, however I will say that Paul is triumphantly declaring that he needs to be saved, not from a person but from himself!
Imagine that! He had an enemy within too! There was a battle raging for his soul also!
We all need saving; salvation is one thing but we also need saving from ourselves. Religious or not, we ALL at times do what we don’t want to do, it’s as if we are having an out of body experience or something.
I know I need a savior, and the only one I believe who can do it is Jesus. Not because I want an easy fix but because some battles I just cannot combat on my own. I need a much wiser and skilled warrior.
A great Christian preacher I follow David Asscherick stated that the number one secret to succeeding in the Christian walk is to keep getting back up. Every time you fall keep getting back up. Because if you don’t you’re guaranteed to lose the battle and the war.
I will keep getting back up. I will keep fighting the enemy within and without.
My charge to you: keep getting back up. Keep fighting the enemy within and without.
This battle is not ours. 🙂
David Asscherick sermon here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GhRf0Z-UxrY
This blog was inspired by my friend Jason. Check him out here: https://jasonperry00.wordpress.com/2016/08/24/battling-your-own-desires/#comment-856