A heart divided

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Some hurts are BIG
And some hurts are LOUD
And some are just kind of quiet, nagging
Like today

The kind that eats away at you slowly, but surely
Until I guess you just don’t feel much of anything anymore

I am becoming a brick wall
And a glass house at the same time

I don’t want to hurt again
So I won’t love you fully
And I won’t let you in
I am guarded and fragile at the same time

Don’t look at me too closely
Else you might not like what you see
Don’t stick around
Otherwise you’ll be obligated to stay

Let me continue to build this house
That no one can get in
Let me continue to wall you out
While I lock myself in

This is what pain does to you
It stumps growth
It assaults dreams
It alters your reality

My vision often gets hazy
My compass often has to be reset
The thoughts can easily takeover
And have their way with me

The reality is there is sunshine and rain
Good days and challenging ones
Growth and lapse
Love and pain

Such is life
Peaks and valleys
Hills and lows
Sunshine and rain

You take the good with the bad and you live to fight another day.

Serenity Prayer 

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change; 
courage to change the things I can; 
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time; 
enjoying one moment at a time; 
accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; 
taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it; 
trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will; 
that I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
forever in the next. 
Amen.

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