Your individual love journey


There is a lot of advice floating around in literature, various social circles and the church on how to find love.   I see so many books, articles, seminars and podcasts with titles like “5 Steps to finding the love of your life”, “12 ways to make him love you” or “True love waits”, or something of that nature.

I used to be an avid consumer of relationship literature and though I don’t negate its importance; I am afraid we have taken a lot of this secular and non-secular relationship advice as the Gospel Truth, overlooking the fact that God has an individual plan for everybody that also includes an individual love story.  We have been fed the narrative that “just because it worked for so-and-so this way and she is a successful wife who married a big time preacher, doctor, entrepreneur or (fill-in the blank) if I do it this way it will happen for me just like that too.”  Or we think if we follow these 10 steps to love detailed in the latest relationship book, we’ll actually find it…because well the book said so and it’s a best-seller.  And the speaker on the recent relationship expert panel sounded so convincing they must know what they’re talking about so we must sign up for their expensive coaching package.

I also hear a lot of discussion in Christian circles and churches detailing what women should and should not do if they want to be found by a husband.  Such suggestions include being still (based on the scripture he who findeth a wife findeth a good thing), hiding her face in the Lord, not accepting dates from a man that she is not 100% sure is her husband, being busy in the Lord and basically just being perfect!

However, I noticed that I don’t hear similar instructions being directed towards men about preparing for a wife, which is a double standard.  If men are supposed to be the one’s finding wives I don’t hear any leaders instructing them to stop sleeping around, leading women on or fathering children out of wedlock and just marry them already.  I don’t hear any discussion encouraging a man to live his life in preparation for a wife, by building stability and cultivating an environment as a protector and provider for a future family.  It seems to me the messages that are being delivered is it’s the woman’s job to do everything perfectly and somehow God will honor her perfection by rewarding her with a husband, no matter how long she has to wait.

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The battle within


“We have met the enemy and he is us.” –Pogo
” I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21 So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22 For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23 but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. 24 O wretched man I am!”  Romans 7: 15-24

Life is a battle.  Point blank period.  There’s no escaping that truth.  The older I get the more battles I seem to face.  Relationships, work, family, friends, etc.  Each of these battles are time consuming, at times draining, but oh-such a necessary part of life!  But out of all of the daily, weekly and monthly battles  I face, nothing seems to quite compare to the battle within. Continue reading

Surrendering the canvas


me at a Paint Nite

I have developed a new-found love for painting.  I regularly attend Paint Nite events with friends where an instructor leads a group of people through a guided illustration.  The whole purpose of Paint Nite is to have fun and let your creative juices flow!

As I reflect on my recent painting experiences I can’t help but think of how a painter’s canvas symbolizes the human life in its various stages of development. Continue reading

The Prodigal Son: I was the bitter older brother


Many of us are familiar with the biblical story of the prodigal son.  A young man takes his inheritance, leaves his father’s home and eventually squanders his wealth.  Poor, hungry and alone he eventually comes to his senses and returns to his father’s home where he is welcomed and celebrated.

A part of the story that doesn’t often get as much attention is the older brother’s response to his sibling’s return.  The older brother’s response to his younger brother’s homecoming is one filled with bitterness and comparison. He protests to his Father that the young son deserves punishment for his prior actions and points out his faithful personal service to his Father.

The funny thing is I agree with the older brother.  When you do good, good things are supposed to come to you right?  If you do foolish things then you deserve those consequences…right?

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Back door dating


Back door dating

  1. When two people are dating but there are no clear definitions, expectations or discussion of the status of the relationship. Thus enabling any party to abandon the relationship at any time with no explanation.
  2. Also known as trying to date someone without professing any intention or desire for a relationship with that person; hoping a relationship will just fall into place based on sheer continuous interaction with the person.

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Unapologetically Me!

UM Final


God created me with a big smile and a big heart!

God created me with a unique ability to write and touch others with my words.

He created me to love others, love who I am and grow in love towards Him.

This is who he created me to be, but sometimes I have felt I have to apologize in one way or another for who I am, who I was and who I am becoming.

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How to forget the pain of the past


The other day as I was completing some house-hold chores I reached for my broom and began to walk towards my five year old dog Ginger.  As I drew close to her, broom in hand, she cowered in fear; sadly a typical response for her.  I’ve never disciplined her with a broom but I’m guessing she had some pretty scary experiences with them from her former home.  You see, she is a rescue dog that I’ve had for about three years and while she has an overall happy disposition she has always displayed a fear of brooms. 😦  It breaks my heart because as long as she’s lived with me she still hasn’t forgotten that trauma.

It got me to thinking and I wondered are we not that way sometimes in our own lives?  We go through a traumatic experience as a child or an adult, at the hands of another individual or as a result of a tragic accident or unfortunate circumstance and we just cannot forget the pain, the hurt; the entire experience.  And it affects the way we do things, relate to people and see life.  Even the way we do relationship with God some times.

We think He will hurt us the same way that ex-boyfriend or girlfriend did…or take advantage of us like that former friend…or forget to show us love like that parent sometimes did.  So we hold back, even if just a little bit from giving our entire hearts over to Him.

But He understands that.  He knows we’ve been hurt before and that it’s hard to trust… much less trust an invisible being that we can’t see, hold or touch in this life.  God doesn’t expect us to have amnesia about our pasts, He knows that they contributed to shaping us, but He doesn’t want us to regard the pain of the past as more significant than the work He wants to do in us today.  That’s the key to forgetting the pain of the past.

Don’t give up.  Don’t stop trying.  Don’t stay discouraged.  He understands.  Keep pressing in and keep pressing on.  Keep believing, keep getting back up and walking out your victory, from glory to glory. 🙂

There is healing and freedom from the past.  

Ginger Blog June 1, 2016

“Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead,  I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”  Philippians 3:13-14


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How do you handle pain-Full Speech

Hi Friends,

Here is the full speech I gave at a Christian event in Hollywood a few weeks ago based on my previous blog How do you handle pain?  Unfortunately my battery died part way through the speech so I had to film it in two parts…grrrr :/.  As always thanks for your support!!




How do you handle pain-Speech Re-Cap


Hi Friends!

I was blessed to be able to give a speech at a Christian event in Hollywood over the weekend. The speech is based on my previous blog : How do you handle pain. I did a quick video recap of my main points here and will post a reenactment of the full speech later this week or early next week!

I praise God for new speaking opportunities and thank you all for the continued support!

Blessings, 🙂